South Carolina

Been visiting South Carolina since Sunday night. Visiting people, getting bike crap and all that jazz. Leaving tomorrow, but today Kris and I are going to the beach so I’m not so white!!

Pictures will be added tonight, promise.

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Is it better to work for something you truely believe in, or do something you love?

Come on answer me.. see the comment field?? USE IT

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On a Monday, I am waiting

Tuesday, I am fading

And by Wednesday, I can’t sleep

Then the phone rings, I hear you

And the darkness is a clear view

Cuz you’ve come to rescue me

For the Common People

The Tyler Hamilton Foundation announced Friday that it will host a live viewing of stage 13 of the Tour de France on movie screens across the United States. Scheduled for Saturday, July 17, 2004, the nationwide fundraiser’s two lead sponsors are Outdoor Life® Network and Regal CineMedia™. The event will be presented in nineteen Regal Entertainment Group movie theatres, and marks the first time that U.S. cycling fans will be able to view a live European cycling race in high-definition. For a complete listing of cities and Regal Entertainment Group theater locations, visit the THF Web site at www.tylerhamiltonfoundation.org

Bed Kicked Me Out Early

Stupid bed, I didn’t go to bed till 2AM or so, and I woke up at 8… Couldn’t go back to bed. I blame it, I mean come on I sleep all the time. Why couldn’t I sleep this morning?? My day off, I should be sleeping all day.

Actually, I have tons of shit to do. Finish painting my frame, moving all my shit downstairs to another room, and vacumming the poop out of it. If I get done my frame and it dries I can take it to work to tap the BB and ream the headset.

It will be a parts bike, but I won’t have to drive as much! I’ve said it before, I miss riding. It’s hit me really hard.

Parties and What Not

Went to a bike party tonight. Basically went to a fellow employee of City Bikes house.. he happens to be well a collector of fine bike products, and very into fit. This made Arleigh’s day so I’m happy now.

Too late/early however u look at it to continue this blog any further.

Who knows anyways?!?!

I hate being let down. Especially by loved ones. What sucks is I’m being a hyprocrite if I say that. Knowing I have let down plenty of people in the past, so I dont know why I get so upset. Maybe because I believe in people more than they believe in themselves?

The last straw has been pulled between myself and the ex. I love the girl to death, but I can’t deal with all the pain and drama right now that she seems to cause no matter what. I know she doesn’t try to, but it happens, and continues to happen. I’m trying to live ya know? That was the point of moving, to find happiness, figure out who I am and be with my family. Two of those have been found. The other I am working on. Unless I free my mind and self from all the stupid stresses of life. I won’t be able to find who I am. I want to do something with myself, even if it’s bicycles the rest of my life. I want to do it to the best of my ability, and I won’t be able to till I work it all out. The past is holding me from that. She is in the past it seems.

Maybe one day our paths will path a little bit better, with a cleaner trail cut. She made/makes me happy yes, but that’s not always it. We are on two different paths anymore. Have been since day one and finally they went opposite directions. No one is blamed for that, nor will I ever blame anyone. All the memories I don’t regret, nor will I ever. Who knows it may all work out.. it may not. Either way I’m going to live my life looking forward, and right now it doesn’t seem like she’s in the picture until atleast she graduates and has a better clue in what is going to be happening with her life. If we continue to keep trying, we will only get more and more hurt. (Like last night for example)

Too much rambling….

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Dont worry you will find the answer if you let it go

give yourself some time to falter

But dont forgo knowing that youre loved no matter what

and everything will come around in time

I own my insecurities I try to own my destiny

That I can make or break it if I choose

But you take my words and twist them round till Im the one who brings you down

Make me feel like Im the one to blame for all of this

You need everybody with you on your side

Know that I am here for you but I hope in time

Youll find yourself allright alone

Youll find yourself with open arms

Youll find yourself youll find yourself in time

The riot in my heart decides to keep me open and alive

I have to take myself away from you

cause I cant compete I cant deny theres nothing that I didnt try

how did I go wrong in loving you
- Sarah